Tomorrow's the day!

Wow. After nine months, tomorrow, I will have a son. It's weird to even type that. I am so excited but so scared at the same time. Some people are meant to be moms, I'm never realized that I could be one of them. Now I'm having all kinds of doubts that this was a good idea. The cost. The time. The energy. What if I fall apart? What if he hates me? Man, I wish I could drink. I could use a magarita right now.

The countdown starts...

It's weird that I should be excited about my cervix softening. Anyways, according to the doctor, I am dilated 2cm, the cervix is 50% effaced, I am at station 2 and apparently could go at any time. I might actually have this May baby in May. However, should I not go on my own, she has decided to induce me next Thursday, the 21st. With my gestational diabetes and pregnancy induced hypertension, she feels that the longer I go, the more dangerous it is for me and Caleb. I am all for taking this dude out. Only thing is that the 21st is dad's birthday and I'm not sure I would like to have my son and my dad share a birthdate. My cousin Danny and our grandfather, though didn't share a birthday, always celebrated theirs together because it was only a few days apart. How sucky is it for a kid to never have your own birthday cake? His cakes have always said "Happy Birthday Danny and Grandpa". Funny I should stress about this. I supposed it's because otherwise I would stress about the fact that in 6 days, I will have a tiny human I will have to take care of.

3 Weeks and counting

Three more weeks until...

Until what? It's not like he'll magically appear on May 28th. One encouraging news is that I am 25% effaced. So at least progress is made.

Good news...bad news...

The good news is, Ngoc is pregnant. In fact, she's been wanting to have another baby for the last 7 years. Her husband, Charlie, is decisively against it. Not that he doesn't love kids, but he is still in school and she doesn't make a lot of money and he feels that a second child would be a strain on their financial resources. I'm quite impressed actually that the pull out method worked as long as it did for them. So now they are expecting their second in January.
The bad new is, they will need their crib and I will have to buy a new one. Luckily I have a baby hammock and a pack 'n play so no need to spend that 800 bucks until at least 5 months from now.

You look vaguely familiar

BWB's first semester in law school did not go well. He is ADD but was not on medication. Luckily, he is on my insurance now and has been on Vyvanse for this semester. Finals start Wednesday. I am confident he will do much better. And though I am happy that is able to concentrate, I am without a husband for the last three months. In fact, I've seen him a total of 10 minutes in the past three days. He came home Friday night to shower then left again for school. He said hi to me Saturday morning as he went out to walk the dogs. He didn't even come back in to say goodbye, just opened the door to let the dogs back in. And this morning, he crawled into bed at 6:30 in the morning as I was waking up to get ready for work. And this is only year 1. There are still two more years to go. If you see my husband in his cubby, would you tell him his wife misses him?

I can do this mom thing...I think...

Butt waggles to the rescue

After the last appointment where the doc told me that Caleb is breech and only has an 8% chance of turning, I didn't let it discourage me. I sprang into action. Starting with the simpliest and cheapest option, spinningbabies.com. The one I tried had you get down on all four and walk 2 steps down the stairs. I did that for two days, 2 minutes each. The blood rushing to my head was not fun. So then I did the modified version of it, getting on all four on my bed, then laid my head completely down on the mattress, spread my arms and wiggled my butt. Did that for 5 minutes a day for about a week. Then one day last week, I noticed how much the baby was moving. It was just the one day but from what everyone told me, that's usually a sign that he's turned. Since it was another 4 days until my next appointment and when the doc could use the ultrasound to check for position, I decided to go for option two, "breech presentation massage". Apparently, you can get this massage that relaxes your muscles and encourage the baby to turn. Not to be confused with external versioning. Also in the works? I scheduled an acupuncture session. Apparently, people swear by this process. But it was the most expensive so I decided that if the baby is still breech then I would pay the $185 a session for three sessions which would be a lot cheaper than a c-section and a whole lot less painful.
What do you know, I didn't need the massage or the acupuncture, Caleb has turned. Not sure the butt waggles did the trick, but I'm glad that's one less thing for me to worry about. Let's hope he stays that way or I'm gonna ground him for the next 5 years.