I'm not fat...I'm pregnant

I kinda like having this little pregger belly. I think it's cute. That is, until I stood next to this fat woman in the elevator and our bellies looked EXACTLY the same. I wanna cry.

It's official...being pregnant sucks

I'm on medication for high blood pressure. Two days of cutting out salt entirely did not lower the reading. Not that I think I can go like that for 5 more months. At the doctor's office yesterday, I get more bad news, I have gestational diabetes. In addition to cutting sweets, carbs, fruits, I will have to test my blood sugar 4 times a day. For 2 weeks. That's 56 sticks. No wonder my parents always said, "the sacrifices I made for you". I'm so totally using that on my kid!

Knock three times...

Holy cow. The last time I felt something in the general baby vicinity was when I was 13 weeks, that's 3 weeks ago. Since then, nothing. Then this morning, constant thump-thump-thump. Well, if there was a noise associated with it, that's what it would sound like. I've felt kicks before on other women's bellies and while it's weird, it is definitely a hundred times weirder when it's is happening to you. And you feel it on the inside.

There's salt in my cereal

No really. My Cinnamon Toast Crunch has 220mg of sodium, more than the recommended amount that I can eat. At this point, being on medication is looking really good. Hopefully the reading at the dr in an hour will be good and I can "keep on eye" on it instead of going on a full sodium ban.

Yah! Another thing for me to worry about

Yesterday was my first appointment with the OB/GYN in my second trimester. This appointment is important because there were things that I couldn't do in the first and new things that popped up that I wanted to ask her. I repeated the list to myself the entire day so I wouldn't forget. "sex, swimming, acne, itchy nips" "sex, swimming, acne, itchy nips" "sex, swimming, acne, itchy nips". So I get there, I peed, I weighted (gain back the 5 lbs I lost in the first trimester), and had my blood pressure taken.

"Hmm" said the nurse.

"What?"

"Your blood pressure is elevated."

"What's the reading?"

"150 over 100"

"Wow. That is high. Should I be worried?"

"The doctor can tell you more"

So while I was contemplating what having high pressure means, the nurse is having trouble finding the heartbeat which brought on another "hmmm" and a second nurse is called in and she also tried finding the heartbeat using the doppler. No luck.

By now, I am more than a little nervous. First my blood pressure and now they can't find the heartbeat. Needless to say, I forgot the about the sex, the swimming, the acne, and the itchy boobs.

The doctor was able to find the flashing of the heart on the vaginal ultrasound, but then she launched into this whole thing about the blood pressure. How I need to go on medication. Yikes! The second option is to watch my sodium intake and see if the situation improves. Only 200mg of sodium per item I eat. I chose the second because while I know it will be hard to do, I hate taking medicine more.

I go in tomorrow for a reading. Cross fingers.